..Јμѕτ ßεαсђу..

Whispering Pleas

Fall into me..
I will catch you.
Don't be afraid..
Let go.
Take my hand..
I'll not lead you astray.
Take a breath..
Hold it.
Let me touch you..
It won't burn.
Close your eyes..
Drift away.
Listen to the music..
It will tell you the truth.
Taste my kiss..
It will entrance you.
Feel me..
Can you endure it?
Hear my whispered pleas..
I beg you not to go.
Don't walk away..
Please don't leave me.
I'm lost without you..
I need you here with me.
Take away your goodbye's..
I'm all alone now.


 
You
So many things have gone wrong..
So many hurtful words said; at times we don't get along..
So few reasons we give..
So few times have we really been able to live.

We talk about those places we'll go..
We can always say, but we'll never really know.
We still have all those people to meet..
We won't if we're never on that street.

But we won't if you walk away from me..
But you will, cause you just don't see..
But it won't be forever, no it won't be goodbye..
But it might if you don't tell me what's wrong; just reply.

You always tell me to make it better..
You think everything you say I'll do, to the letter..
You don't realize your blind, you just deny it when I say..
You just assume that I won't ever walk away.

Maybe I never will..
Maybe I'm not strong enough; my soul, it would kill..
Maybe I can't, cause I don't know what I'd do..
Maybe I won't ever cause I'm so in love with you..
 


Sorry

I said some things..
That I didn't mean..
We all do that sometimes..
Of what I did, I'm not too keen..

I made it harder..
I admit it was wrong..
I'd take it all back..
Like I should'a done all along..

I'll not do it again..
If that night could be relived..
I'da done it different..
Then maybe no one would have to forgive.
 


Sinful Obsession

I have always wondered..
How sin came to be..
And now..
The answer is clear to me..

I see that wickedness in your eyes..
The glint of malignant intent lingering within..
Dancing in near black orbs..
Holding me entranced..

Though I fight..
When I feel myself sinking..
Plunging into that dismal abyss..
That chasm you call a mind..

You tempt me with empty promises..
And bind me to your side..
Keep me locked in this; your private perdition..
And wear around your neck, the only key..

You tell me fancy words..
As though to tame my mind..
They caress me like silk..
'Til our fates be intertwined..

You, like the forbidden fruit..
The serpent stealing my will to fight..
Your kisses, the temptation I can not withstand..
And I take a bite..

Passion searing through my soul..
Like your touches on my skin..
Boiling my blood like an affliction..
Scorching my innocence..

You are not what you appear..
Pure as the driven snow..
Sinister and cold..
Tainted, like blood on a white rose..

Carnal pleasures..
With lack of emotion..
Each cry of surrender..
Flung from my bruised lips..

This terrible hunger..
Tearing me apart inside..
Only wishing for you to love..
Though accepting the abandonment to come..

Have you ever cared?
Is this a game?
Did you even love me?
What is it that you gain?

Demented tormentor..
Playing with my fragile being..
In the end you'll find..
I have nothing left to give..

My body lies lifeless..
Eyes stare up blank..
I utter no whisper..
Did you relish my death?



I can't

I can feel you frowning..
Deep inside, I know drowning.
I can't help make the pain go away..
But I can put your fears at bay.

I can wrap you in my arms..
And take you away from harm.
I can't make everything ok..
But I can try and make your day.

I can dream about your smiles..
Lost in the happy moments for awhile.
I can't promise it will be perfect all the time..
Perfection might be a crime.

I can imagine living without your love..
Alone and placid; your all that I think of.
I can't just bid you adieu..
Although I will say, "I love you.."



Lying In The Dark

Lying in the dark..
Listening to your heart..
Silence all around me..
Except the slow rhythm of your heartbeat..

Peaceful relaxation..
Uninterrupted sleep..
You lie so silently..
Sleeping, unaware of my thoughts..

I can't imagine how it t'would be..
Not lying next to you..
Drifting off into oblivion..
Every night in your arms..

Total tranquility..
Absolute serenity..
Divine realization..
All that I find in your tender embrace..

I need not look for more..
For I have found my place..
Forever, next to you..
Lying in the dark..
 


Psychotic
 
Traces of memories flit through my mind..
Scouring my soul with a Brillo pad..
Trying to rid my mind of all the things I've seen..
Melancholy moments of time stolen..
Trepidation with the little things that I have taken for granted..
Mistaken words with more meaning then they seemed..
Chaotic thoughts of taking over simple minds..
My mental capacity is overloading, can't take much more..
Cracking up inside my brain..
Bleached to a whiteness to cover up a tainted stain..
Flirting with fire and expecting it to tickle..
Laughing insanely at something inconsequential..
Remembering the acid coated words that left your lips..
Tying me, binding me in the ground..
Liquid burning my eyes, although they are not tears..
Drugs making me weaker, dragging me down..
Into my own world where everything goes exactly as I say..
 

 
What will be

Do you want to be alone?
By yourself in that little hovel you call a home..

Trying to build walls to block everything in..
But the walls just keep crumbling before your eyes..

Do you want to take my hand?
When you're drowning in your pool of false tears..

Rising from that what used to be your support..
Your reason for carrying on..

Do you want to fix the mess?
Piece back together the shattered heart that is yours alone..

The pain within you searing like a raw impassioned flame..
Your frail and broken form singed..

Do you want to know the answer to it all?
The question that drives you mad at night while you are cowering away..

Then look to me for the answer..
Because here it is..

"What will be, will be..
What was not, will end.."


 
Try
 
Degrade me..
Hate me..
Try and persuade me..

Hold me..
Scold me..
Try and choke me..

Bury me..
Flay me..
Try and obey me..

Burn me..
Kill me..
Try and leave me..

Smother me..
Suffocate me..
Try and debate me..

Love me..
Hold me..
Try and betray me..


 
I will

Can I just fly away?
I don't want to stay another day..

I can't help but want to hide..
Lock everyone out; stay inside..

Carry myself to that dank place..
Where no one will recognize this swollen face..

A place where I can rest my eyes..
For the tears I can no longer disguise..

A simple time..
To feel utterly sublime..

In my non-existent life..
With little happiness, and too much strife..

I carried that hope..
That you'll be there to help me cope..

To give me strength of mind..
And leave all of this behind..

For I will not give..
My right to live..

I'll not be cast down..
And live with a constant frown..

I will move on..
And not be the silent pawn..

And to end another chapter..
Goodbye to you, My Captor..
 


The Affliction
 
Taste the honeyed liquid slide across my parted lips, sweet vitae.
Intoxicating seduction in my embrace, till the dawn of a new day.

Entranced by my enticing gaze, your surrender ever-present in your eyes.
A deep, demanding kiss strengthens our bonds, severing ties.

The blood lust strong within your mind, rushing through your rapidly pulsating veins.
Deny yourself not the substance that keeps life; break the reigns.

Away with thee, to thine own dark palace beneath the sleeping mortals haven.
From below, invade their dreams and terrify the minds of the weak and craven.

Rise and make your mark, for those shall tremble and hide.
Dusk till Dawn, therein lies your time to make those, to whom you, they must abide.

 

Not Me...Not Anything

I am not what you think, I am a figment of your imagination.
Held in the prison, held in my own misery, all alone...segregation.

Falling off the train to immortality,
Nothing but morality.

Torn emotions, ripped at the seems;
Heart left broken, chilling dreams.

Fear of something, but nothing in sight.
Pain; torture, scared every night.

Hiding in the corner, frightened of the dark.
Tragic mourners, fire spark.
 


Interlude In Time

A whisper in the silence.
A flame in the dark.

A trifling cause of resentment.
A faceless enemy of thine.

A careless gesture on a broken form.
A mind torn, yet no more.

A mistake forgotten.
A sin forgiven.

A trip to paradise.
A passionate embrace.

A thoughtless kiss.
A fleeting caress.

A feeling of contentment.
A moment lost in time.

A few unspoken words.
An obsession gone too far.

A knife slashing deep.
A blood curdling scream.

Lost and confused,
In my own dream.
 


Alone

It rolls over,
The deep dark blue.

I feel myself sinking,
Into the abyss.

I've lost so much lately;
My good memories, my sanity.

Me feet won;t take me anywhere,
They won't move from the edge.

I stand here looking down,
Before me is the sea.

When I look for a moments peace,
I search my mind for your face.

I am so tired of all the pain,
When I wonder what I will gain from all of this.

I try to keep under control,
Not getting angry.

When you join,
They say you'll go in a boy and come out a man.

Well I went in,
And now I'm trapped.

Please don't worry,
It's only bad for me.

Say you'll always be there,
And hold my hand.

Tell me it'll be ok,
And not to be afraid.

Please help me,
Be me again.
 


Tormented

Why do you look at me so?
With tears streaming down your pale cheeks...

Why are you cold to the touch?
Did he hurt you that much?

Did he make you believe all those beautiful lies?
Did he get under your skin?

Make your skin burn like fire with his every caress?

So you thought you could actually change his wicked ways?
Make him feel? Make him care? Make him love?
*short, cold laugh* Most definitely not.



Confess

In my head
I can hear the whispers
Crying and pleading
Begging and seething
They can't help but scream
In pain and fear
Like dirty secrets
They are told
To hear and spread
Like a disgusting disease
Confess your devious thoughts
To The Red Priest
 


Why

Why do we cry
When our hearts hurt
Why do we fall
Into despair
Why do we beg
For forgiveness we will not get
Why do we feel pain
When there is nothing left
Why do they hate
When we love
Why do we damn our selves
And deny heaven above
Why do we feed in haste
When one must savor
Why do we lust
When lusting is a sin
Why do we try overcome
Even if we know we will not win..?
 


They

Like tales
They turn
Into dust and die away.
In their minds
They fight
To win the endless battle.
Like fools
They fall
Into the depths they fear.
In a place
They remain
To wander lifelessly.
Like demons
They haunt
Into my mind and creep
In their demise
They burn
To live would be too much.
 


Conferred

In This Skin,
I Am Bound.
Held Tight,
Without A Sound.
Breathing Harshly,
In Restriction.
Fighting Desperately,
With This Self-infliction.
Despair Every Moment:
No Help In Sight.
Pleading For A Savior,
Each And Every Night.
Fingers scratching,
Flesh Tearing.
Screaming Out,
And No One Caring.
Suffocating Silence,
Not A Voice To Be Heard.
Every Motion Ceased,
Her Death Conferred.